Grab a thong from the drawer. Not that one. Too frilly, too invasive. Jeans, pants, or leggings? Leggings. Can’t do yoga in jeans. Exhale. Raise your butt an inch off the ground. Squeeze all your muscles. Especially the glutes. Press down into your left foot. Squeeze the thighs. Lift your right left. Keep your thigh bone parallel with the ground. Flex your foot. Squeeze those muscles harder. Push your arms up. Wrists straight. Rings toward the ceilings. Keep tightening those muscles. Lists.
Find a shirt. Which shirt though. Didn’t shave the armpits so no tank top. Long sleeve, thermal black shirt.Inhale. Fill your chest. Deep breath in. Expand the ribs. Lower your butt to the floor. Toe touch. Pull your arms down at the elbows. Don’t let them touch the mats. Good. Feel your breath. To do lists.To track lists. To remember lists.
Bra first then shirt. Right. Start with what goes under the shirt. Sports bra. Not that one. Not with that shirt. Not enough support. Not enough to hide behind. Grab the better sports bra.Exhale. Feel your muscles. Raise your butt an inch off the ground. Squeeze all your muscles. Especially the glutes. Press down into your left foot. Squeeze the thighs. Lift your right left. Keep your thigh bone parallel with the ground. Flex your foot. Squeeze those muscles harder. Push your arms up. Wrists straight. Rings toward the ceilings. Keep tightening those muscles. Her lists. His lists. Personal lists.
It’s in the car. Layer, hide, run down. Run up, remove layers, put on sports bra. Thermal shirt and leggings? Too clingy. Pick skirt. Not the once a week skirt. Try a different skirt. Thermal shirt, leggings, and skirt work for work. Still too tight for yoga. Inhale. Fill your chest. Deep breath in. Expand the ribs. Lower your butt to the floor. Toe touch. Pull your arms down at the elbows. Don’t let them touch the mats. Good. Feel your breath. Personal his list.
Decide on shirt to throw on before yoga, but after work. That requires changing. Change the outfit to prevent an outfit change. There’s no time for an outfit change. Wear the outfit. Slid on black flats. Cut toenails before leaving. Layer back up. Lunch, purse, computer, keys, phone. Check. Check. Check. Check. Check. Exhale. Feel that butt. Raise it an inch off the ground. Squeeze all your muscles. Especially the glutes. Press down into your left foot. Squeeze the thighs. Lift your right left. Keep your thigh bone parallel with the ground. Flex your foot. Squeeze those muscles harder. Push your arms up. Wrists straight. Rings toward the ceilings. Keep tightening those muscles. This week lists. Next week lists. Lists of lists.
Lock door. Start car. Shit. Never cut toenails. Worry later. Left ten minutes later than intended. Fuck. Inhale. Fill your chest. Deep breath in. Expand the ribs. Lower your butt to the floor. Toe touch. Pull your arms down at the elbows. Don’t let them touch the mats. Good. Feel your breath. One. Thing. At. A. Time.